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08:14 - 2007-Nov-9 - comments {0} - post comment
after westmeath
I cross this bridge daily to reach the hospital
Athlone - jam
and i'm already starting to miss mullingar. the doctors (funny Dr. K with his dance moves and catchy ring tone, straight faced + wicked sense of humour Dr M, absolutely patient Dr N, the cute paediatrician :) ... nearly everyone there. Missing the relaxed atmosphere, the friendly midwives, the patients who willingly let me observe, prod and poke them. The crying babies, the nervous husbands, ok, the leaves, the trees, the milk boy, the red bricks.
sigh...
I assisted in 4 C-sections. Well, 3 and a half, since the last one was a patient with placenta accreta (placenta villi breaching the myometrium) and blood was gushing everywhere. It was just a few hours ago, my last time scrubbing in for a C-section there. Could feel the change in the usually uneventful OT, with the fast paced attempt to get the baby out, to stop the bleeding. It looked like the uterus was all mangled. I wonder how the patient is doing... The baby's all fine (and the paediatrician was there too.. hehe). I had to leave since I needed to catch the bus home.
Delivered babies :) I get to meet different types of people (really weird people) there, especially the husbands. We talked about F1 (no idea why and I'm the wrong person to ask about F1), Ayurveda medicine (something about the essence of the mom to the baby through the umbilical cord - he said he had to feel the cord before it was cut), achilles tendon injury (he asked if i did orthopaedics - i forgot most of it), whether I came from India (2 people asked me this), whether I came from China (I had no idea that I look like a Chinese/Indian/both). Hours. Spent hours with them in the labor ward. Especially if it's the first baby. Sometimes, I wouldn't know what to do, especially when they both get all lovey dovey and stuff. Just pretend to be very interested in the various sterile glove sizes.
Chimneys are nice
There was one time when the CTG became really suspicious - I was alone with the patient. Ran out to get the midwife and alerted her. She wasn't sure what was wrong too. so, just observed for a few minutes and it turned out ok. phewh. The delivery went smoothly too.
I thought of nicking the scrubs from the hospital, as a souvenir. But then, the nice part of me thought it was wrong. rightly so. Anyway, I had blood spatters all over mine from the last patient.
We had to get the consultant's signature and his comment on us, just to confirm that we were there and such. Dr M, without looking up - "well, you've been a lazy a$$, never attended anything, downright rude and even if you do turn up, you're always late... isn't that right?"
What was written there: excellent and dot, dot dot.
Me: grin
There's this theatre staff nurse or something. The first day there, she was all fussy and had me label her as number one enemy: No, you can't do that! You have to do this... Don't take those scrubs, the labor ward have their own scrubs! Where are you going? And so on. But today, she was totally different. Nice even. She went out of her way to tell us that the scrubs had arrived, all fresh and clean for us. Wonder why... Maybe she knew that it was our last day there? Heh
Waiting for the bus to Kinnegad - Galway - home
so, i am back. And I'll be having OSCEs and orals and an MCQ next week. I still feel like I don't know a lot. haih..
11:32 - 2007-Nov-2 - comments {0} - post comment
one
poor blog, all neglected :p
I just feel like dropping by a while. i wonder if you'll be reading this.
have i lost all my narutos? i guess so. i can't be bothered to do anything about it anyway.
arm’s all wobbly and punctured and reddish. I was just trying to be tough when i said that i didn’t feel a thing. heh. we had our first phlebotomy session just now i.e drawing blood from each other. Practice makes perfect. blood was spilled, tiny bruises emerged, sensations lost (for a while anyway). All fun.
can't believe i'm doing this again.
ta
09:55 - 2007-Oct-12 - comments {1} - post comment
bubbles...
being here is different, of course. thing is, sometimes there'd be the odd frustrations. and then my mind will start to wander all the way to the sheep in west ireland. but that seldom happens. only when someone really gets on my nerves or when i'm too tired (from the back breaking work... har di har) or if i feel like i need a 'me' time (to watch anime).
i can't have a satisfying shower. no exfoliating grains and conditioner here. don't even think of lying in a nice bath filled with bubbles and wondrous scents. not that i ever did that. i get nauseated with flowery smells.
KNOCK! KNOCK!
"Hey! How much longer are you in there? A few seconds or a few minutes? I can't hold it any longer!"
or
KNOCK KNOCK!
"Come on... I have to shower now. I'm late for school already!"
or
KNOCK KNOCK!
"Can you please wash this? a bit of Dynamo will do. and dunk it in the bucket to get rid of the soap and all. thanks!"
i only have time to myself around midnight, when everyone else is asleep. explains the lack of updates. not really. i'm also finding it difficult to blog due to temporary loss of interest in it. when it's already dark, that's when i get to do a bit of work. not much, but enough to keep my head from being completely devoid of useful knowledge.
oh no, i'm not complaining. i haven't had this much family time for ages. and i'm making up for all those times i've been away.
******
i had a chance to have dinner in the revolving restaurant in KL T0wer last weekend. I was a VIP :D haha... Followed my dad again. something about w@shington @ccord doing appraisal of the engineering faculties in the universities here. and again, i had to act all 'grown up' and stuff. hmph. the view was beautiful though. through grimy hand prints of kids on the glass, i could see tiny lights around the city.
******
a family friend is getting married soon and i'm to be the gift-giver or something. you know... the one who smiles painstakingly and hands the small gifts to the guests. is that the same thing as being bridesmaids? no? i don't think so.
******
i will probably help my sister with the blogathon entries tomorrow. see how it goes. hopefully, it won't slip my mind.
******
see, it's all very family oriented :D
06:32 - 2007-Jul-27 - comments {0} - post comment
bye
back into the 'cease all blogging for the summer' mood again.
i'll see this blog again in 3 months time (or whenever i feel like blogging again).
:naruto kiss:
oh, before that,
and this
A young Dad and tiny me :D
:naruto smile:
10:17 - 2007-Jun-4 - comments {0} - post comment
last minute, pre exam, lalala
10 hours till finals. and i thought i was banned from this blog but when i went to check, it wasn't so. why no change in the password? and here i am, at a loss of what to do. i actually don't feel anything much right now. all my work up till now will be put to test tomorrow and the coming weeks. all rest on Allah's will now. it's either hello fifth medical year or fail gloriously. i would rather it be the former. InsyaAllah.
you must be sick of this. as i am. patience dear self. just 2 weeks left. then, hopefully, i'll be one happy individual celebrating the end of the academic year.
i will probably be reading all those unread alerts later on. or most likely, i'll be sleeping. the luxury of sleep. when was the last time i had that? i dunno. it's either wake up to thoughts of exams swirling in my head or from stiffness due to sleeping while reading. ceh, i have time to blog but not to do some other worthy things.
have you ever had someone mistake you for a doctor, calling you frantically to a one-room ward where a patient can be seen having an arrest? and that patient happens to be terminally ill. and you've just started your clinical year (read: head as empty as a MILO tin licked clean). and then you think of running away. and why am i talking like this? anyway, happened to me. nasib the team was nearby and i called them and everything went smoothly. all nice except that the patient's family members thought i was one heck of a lousy 'doctor', not knowing what to do. well, i'll learn in time, that's for sure.
off tangent. i am hungry. it's 11.54pm and we have run out of food (this seems to be the main issue all the time eh?). i definitely have to buy something later on.
wait, it's isha'. continue later.
Ya Allah, permudahkanlah segala urusan bagiku. Let my heart be at peace. Let me get through this. Let me be the bearer of good news. Amin.
11:55 - 2007-May-17 - comments {0} - post comment
how was it
3 weeks. huh
wow... the final meds have just finished their final exams today. by june, they'll be doctors... i saw them just now, waiting for their turn for orals. they look matured. must be the tailored suits they were wearing. am i supposed to be wearing those kinda stuff too? but i don't have any. and i have a feeling that it's gonna be expensive. i wonder how it felt, going through the year. will i be like them in a year's time? hah, here i am wondering when i'm supposed to be going through my own thing. focus! focus! it's forensics for goodness sakes.
see, i still have the time to play around with that DNA thing. i am in denial that we still have exams. when the other students in other faculties have gone away for the summer. it's just us meds left now. even the main campus was devoid of people. no surprise that the lady who helped me bind my report was so eager for a chat.
we're planning a lot for stuff to do after exams. walk under the trees near the quadrangle, sit in the fields, picnic somewhere, rent a car and go somewhere, anywhere, watch animes, paint, cook, walk some more, call home, clean the house, have a last party of some sort (might be the last time someone will be single here..), travel a bit, if time and money permits.
ok, forensics. coroner's duty, asphyxiation, gun shot wounds, alcohol and the law, drowning, infanticide, electrocution. love em but too much. and more. one of the docs said we'd be fine if we know his stuff. well, of course lah.
i can't sleep.
my alarm has gone off and it's 12am and already isha' so i've to go now. someone is showering at this time of the night. wonder who. hope she won't get sick or anything.
kaklong, can you change my password so that i cannot log in for 2 weeks? eh, make it 2 and a half weeks. ok?
10:59 - 2007-May-15 - comments {0} - post comment
good times?
I’m :naruto cool: :kakashi:
I skipped lectures today due to throbbing head. After dreaming of a young antoni0 b@nderas trekking through leech infested jungles all the way to Terengganu to ask for my hand, I ended up looking at pictures of exploded skulls and drowned victims. Did I tell you I have forensics and social and preventive medicine exams coming up? plus orals. And the report which is due next week. The exam is also next week. What fun.
Sorry, I have not much time to read blogs except for yours. need to know what's happening..
Trish gave me dried plums. “For your birthday” That’s a first :D
Emma invited us to her house for her special curry but I’m not sure when we’ll be able to come. But I want to.
The rent will still be 80 per month for summer which is great. happy to have her as our landlady.
It’s nice when someone comes to see how you’re doing when you’re unwell.
Guess the good outweighs the bad :)
For kaklong:
Yes, the cough + sneeze and all.
I took something for the fever.
Wrapped up warmly.
Had a peek at Naruto Shippuden ep 6 (kakashi kakkoi!!)
Stopped yamato altogether. After things settle down, will continue.
:iruka:
ps. antoni0 because i'm in love with puss in shrek 2.
11:40 - 2007-May-9 - comments {0} - post comment
sick
It’s the bank holiday weekend but there’s no holiday for me. exams. and I still haven’t finished my report on HIV strategies and other boring stuff. the team leader can be seen pulling his hair nearly everyday. as for myself, I’m too tired already. There are just too much to juggle and the hot weather makes me think of home even more. You know, I have a sore throat because I had too much ice lollies these past few days and am now blessed with a nice croak. it came at the most appropriate time for the student seminar next week :|. Suara serak basah. But ouch.
When I was a kid, I get whacked all the time in the streets, at school, at home. the teachers, the parents… It’s all normal, a part of life. And you don’t go running to your mama or papa when the teacher canes you, unless you want to get another bashing from your old man, demanding to know what you did wrong to warrant the caning by the teacher in the first place. So, it was all normal. I didn’t think it was violence.
I wonder what he did to get whacked so much. This was a talk on violence and force. Who else, if not prof C0rmican (bet you’re sick of hearing me talk about him all the time). :laugh: But it really is interesting.
We did something on gunshot wounds, whether it was homicide or suicide. And poisoning: paraquat, cyanide etc. CSI-ish.
***
I don’t get it. did it start from that friendly tug on my bag? Or from that question? I think it’s just my crazy head trying to make me crazier than normal. Please, head, behave. Please, heart, don’t let these foolish feelings reside there. posting this? It’s the most embarrassing thing. I know you’ll just poke and prod me till I spill. Or laugh. or something. stop it. haih. It is official; the sun has made me go bonkers.
I’m just digging a hole and making trouble for myself. Why can’t I just be a kid again and not have to deal with these things...? but I guess I have to grow up someday. I really do think that it’s the stress talking here. Maybe my mind is forcing me to concentrate on other things so that it won’t snap thinking about exams too much. Yes, I think that’s it. must be. Yep.
Besides, he has this annoying habit of… not telling. Who knows who might be reading this. If you know me, this is just a make believe thing. You fell for it? hah!
I think too much.
I need sleep.
Suddenly I’m reminded of Dr Hobbit. I wonder where in the world he is now… And Dr C@thal. Both are a few of the best doctors I’ve met. And both gone from UCHG. But I’m glad I had the chance to have them as my tutor for a month.
***
It is absolutely frying here that people are splashing about in pools in front of their houses (am jealous), playing water guns (am jealous), eating ice creams (points to self), trying to wear as little and as light as possible. It’s ok at home, I can wear anything. But outside, it’s torture. At the same time, kinda nice. Am contradicting myself. But it is nice, the blue sky, the trees, the blossoms. If not for the glare, I’d be able to take everything in. buy shades you say? that’ll be the day.
***
I still cannot find the rolled canvas. I haven’t been gallivanting around town for a long time. no time and scorching. Anyway, maybe I will later on. But probably after everything’s finished. Jonathan was asking about where I got my art supplies from. he said he saw loads of canvases in Liverpool when he went to visit his friend and remembered that I wanted them. But they were too huge or his bag was overweight or he was too malas to buy it for me. don’t really mind. I will continue doing what I do later later.
***
I am 22.
Just wanted to point it out to you. Remember :D
10:05 - 2007-May-4 - comments {0} - post comment
Untitled
i'm feeling lazy today. also tired. sorry if i haven't been more commited and am more 'silent' than usual. class at 4pm. later then.
01:35 - 2007-Apr-25 - comments {0} - post comment
for now
i can't help falling in love with you.
such a happy smiley sort of song. now i feel like singing too :D
i have the whole day tomorrow with Dr Kean's team and this will be my last week as a fourth year student in the hospital. glad that i have Arn as my partner this time. having a very motivated partner makes you even more motivated to wake up early to go for attachments. having a good team makes it even better. the new term will start in september and i'll be - gasp! - 2 years away from finishing. hoho.. and then i have to learn to drive again. i know i'll just forget if i do a bit in summer.
i'm trying to sketch. learning to sketch. for a friend. you know who you are :D just that i always end up with these atrocious results. now, i'm not that certain if i can do it. kaklong, you want to see what i've been doing? i'll send it to you later. and you. if you want to see it that is.
listening to this makes me smile. talking to Bug makes me grin. talking to my housemates makes me laugh. chatting with my family for hours makes me smile, grin and laugh. i didn't realize it was that long until my stomach was growling in protest and my throat parched.
i am a bit sad that it's nearly ending. this year i mean. i won't be home much next year since we'll be posted to different parts of ireland. i have no idea where. and i might have to stay in a B&B. now having a car, money and being able to drive is certainly a good thing. hope things will run smoothly, whatever happens. hope that in everything i do, i do with a calmness in my heart. amin.
ok, have to shower now. nearly 10.
09:45 - 2007-Apr-22 - comments {0} - post comment
Colour
I am perfectly fine save for these 2 bloody gashes on my leg and one on my finger. Separate incidences. Same day. It looks lovely, wish I can show you kaklong. The first one, a sharp steel wire thing from the sofa in the kitchen. The second one, kitchen foil. In conclusion, I am clumsy and the kitchen is a dangerous place.
I followed Dr K’s team even though I am not under him. I feel like there are too many people in my own team and it’s a bit suffocating, not only for the patients, but also for me. Imagine, in a patient’s tiny place, there’s a consultant, a reg, an SHO, an intern, 3 4th meds and three 3rd meds. So, I sneaked out and joined the other team (2 of the students are on Erasmus exchange somewhere in France and I haven’t seen the batang hidung of any 3rd meds). It’s just myself and Arn. I love this new team. We get special treatment, being the only students :D. Doing Oncology. Sigh.. Dr K is so nice. The head nurse is one friendly lady and she kept asking whether we know a guy named TC who's married to her niece since TC used to study here. I find it amusing that they seem to find our scarves so fascinating. Where'd you get it? Wow... and so on. More so when they wanted to feel the texture. pegang2 orang pulak...
To Java City just to get a huge mocha and caramel java launch but they said they ran out of ice! I mean, it’s the only time since forever that I stepped in there and they have no Java launch for me. huh. Did I say it was warmmmm.
There’s supposed to be an on take (on call) tonight but I am just too tired although strangely exhilarated. I don’t know. It’s a mish mash of feelings. Good ones. :D I feel like doing something. anything. Art. Preferably. Seeing all the colours and other people’s work makes me feel so… happy. Also a bit restless.
If I don’t blog for a while, it means that I have lost a lot of blood and am now happily unconscious on the cold floor of some ward. Or that I am busy with other stuff.
10:10 - 2007-Apr-19 - comments {0} - post comment
Last
ok, i will definitely stop blogging. for a while, till the end of this week. if i can help it. this will be my last one.
it looks like i won't be going to Greece after all and i won't be getting any visits from my loved ones any time soon :(
well, not that disappointed. there are just a few months left before summer and at least i won't have to skip attachments or lectures or tutorials and then end up being behind in the class. so, that's good. another good reason is that i have very limited resources now, after the ticket purchase. but still ok, everything's enough. i've just received my bank statement the other day and what do you know, i'm €60 richer due to the hospital stay months ago :D. nice surprise. when i checked again, they've added 100 more for the garda card that we had to pay last year. double nice :D
sunrise is so early now that i keep waking up in the middle of my dreams and then i'll remember them for the rest of the day. last night, it was a weird one. subarachnoid haemorrhage running in the family. eek! i even remember the doctor diagnosing it and all.
so this is the end of my holidays. since there's only one lecture tomorrow, i'll be going for attchments the whole day. probably. it's radiotherapy and gastro. i haven't seen a few of my team mates for such a long time, ever since we finished exams. maybe they're still celebrating... For now, it's just myself, Trish and Kai plus the third meds.
Hey, i've just received a message from Diana. she'll be arriving in 4 hours and she's hunggry. so, better cook something. later then.
02:39 - 2007-Apr-15 - comments {0} - post comment
Untitled
anyone get this? hmm..
:naruto question: :naruto cool: :naruto nothappy: :naruto pff: :kakashi: :iruka:
anyone? i'm just wondering
if this is made for buddies only, will anyone get any alerts later on in the future?
PS. nape pulak ni kaklong...?
i'm certain no one will notice this. haha. laughing by myself. hmmm hmmm... let's just go a bit nuts and lalalalalalalala at the same time. heheheheh.
so this will be my last weekend of doing nothing. and then it'll be full swing into work and grown up stuff. i have exams next week which would be really important but i'm not feeling the grip of anxiety yet. it's a few days away.
i made fish + mushroom + corn + onion thingy for dinner. am not good at describing, so that's all there is to it. but it's yummy, considering that the fish is just oven baked.
okla, off to bed
banyak pulak edited
and PS up there. haha. who cares. i wrote a long entry, yet again, but taht's for another day.
10:30 - 2007-Apr-13 - comments {0} - post comment
little town
there’s this scent that keeps wafting through my window and I can’t put my finger on it. I love the smell and I wonder where it’s from. any hidden flowers… maybe from the neighbours’ garden.
since it was pretty warm last night, I opened the window to let the air in. I fell asleep, forgetting to close it but woke up in the middle of the night with a nagging sensation at the back of my head. Quickly closed the window but I felt as if someone was in the room. with that, paranoia kicked in and it was difficult to sleep again, imagining someone crawling on the floor (image of Ju-on and the likes flashed through the mind). the thought of my laptop being stolen was even worse. now that made me sit up. Not that anyone would want it anyway, seeing as it’s an old thing already. And yes, it’s safe and no one had climbed through the window. just my overactive imagination.
I think G@lway is so small that anything can make news. you know, the Mediterr@nean shop (kedai Pak Mat) that sells halal food. well, it made into the local papers for what, if not the best place within 100 miles to get spices and halal food. a few of my seniors also made it in, as an ad for mature students and law students (they’re medical students by the way). and once, there was something on a guy who brought a donkey into a hotel here, saying that the donkey’s a family friend and he was Shrek. There’s even a section on what G@lwegians wear. kinda fashion stuff. So, if you want to be in the papers, just stick around the town, maybe wear something a bit eye catching and the paper people might just interview you on your gear. mostly, the working class people have tops from Paris, boots from Italy and shades from who knows where. And the students (read: poor) have tops from the local Penneys, skirt from the discount shop and the most expensive item would be the shoes from that… erm shoe shop. it’s kinda fun actually, because I’d know where the places are and I might even know some of the people too.
speaking of Pak Mat, he’s actually an Iraqi. I wonder who gave him that nick. before meeting him, I thought he’s a Malay. when he came to deliver the meat, people were yelling out, “kejap Pak Mat, jap eh!”. No wonder he didn’t say a thing. I think his name is actually M0hamed. I only just realized that he’s not that young anymore, when he had to carry that 40kg sack of rice for us and he looked… old, tired. Of course, 40kg is heavy, as heavy as Diana plus or minus 2kg. mesti sakit belakang. I wonder where his workers are.
you know what, a tiny, teeny weeny portion of people here thought that Malaysia is backward. they even asked whether we have cars back home. I bet they think we live in trees or caves. saying that even tiny Diana drives would make their eyes go big (well, I don’t drive but they needn't know that). it just makes me want to laugh. now this puts me on another flow of thought. being small is a bit hard. wouldn't it be tough in orthopaedics? unless you do hand surgery. i feel like i need to go to the orthopaedics attachments again. still a lot that i am unaware of. what was the excuse again...? exams? i can't remember. but it was great while it lasted. if only i am more driven to just go for any attachments during the holidays...
this place is nice, it’s smallness and quaintness. I'm not much of a city girl, that’s why I like it here so much. and people smile a lot here. I’d always get the odd wave and mornin’ by some people when out walking. I notice it’s always like this in small towns I visit. Well, most of them anyway. remember, alang, Salzburg. especially that station master with the blue eyes who showed us the way.
I should be doing other things now.
something's throbbing in my ear.
07:21 - 2007-Apr-12 - comments {0} - post comment
hot.
for 2 seconds there, i thought my narutos were gone.
:D i talked to ayah just now. and ibu. and Rumaisa' and Mus'ab and kaklong. am very very happy. :D just happy. Mus'ab's voice is deeper, no? he's growing up already. i wonder if he can still be bullied. hopefully so. i need my hot chocolate-maker (him) and my hair-player (him) and just someone whom i can order around in a nice way which wouldn't seem like ordering around. haha
having nothing to do is such a bore. i know, i should be preparing for stuff, but that's too dull. so, i end up finishing Ouran, going on to Mai Hime and thinking of GTO. i'm still a fan of sunako and kyouhei though. Shaz is in her room and occasionally, when i pass by, i'd hear her laughing like a banshee to Lee Ev@ns. she's addicted to him methinks.
it's nice, sittting here with the window open and i'd hear the kids playing somehwhere in the field. sometimes, there'd be the ice cream van going around with the tinkling sound. i saw someone sitting on the hill slope, having fun with a water gun, you know, the huge one - like the ones i bought for them 2 boys. and i'd feel like joining. if i were only 5 years old, kan boleh je join.
it's hot now, that i keep eating ice lollies or ice creams all the time. pile up the kilos then. balik malaysia, will go on the routine family jog, so that's ok.
08:00 - 2007-Apr-10 - comments {0} - post comment
love
i haven’t talked to my parents for ages. seems like ages. well, nearly a month. is there something wrong with the phone line? it’s their anniversary today too. that’d be 26 years of being together, of going through ups and downs together, of worrying over us kids (adults?). i remember when ibu told me how she used to worry so much about me. when they both worried about me. always the quiet one, not much interest in things (really?). i didn’t even realize it. i mean, i felt like i had everything, so, i didn’t need anyone else. in fact, i couldn’t really accept anyone else. i don’t know why. but things change. people do. i don’t know how much i’ve changed, but i hope i have, for the better. do you still worry?
they’re becoming even more… romantic as the years go by. i just love staying back, to watch them walk hand in hand, my father tall, my mother tiny (as Diana would say).
ayah’s accepted a new position now. i’ve just received an e-mail from him. i guess that would mean busier than ever? or not?
happy 26th anniversary to both of you, my loving parents!
psst. Kaklong, betul kan, today is their anniversary kan? kan? tell them I wish them a happy one. I tried to call since ages ago, but takleh.
***
i’ve made a mistake again. but nothing major. just took a consultant for another. at least I didn’t call out his name or anything. but they all look alike. well, kind of. both have dark hair, both are tall. both have taught me. they’re great teachers. even their surnames are similar. i guess i was too tensed to think properly that time :D
hey, the tree outside my room is budding :) and i thought it’s just a skeleton of a tree. really, I have nothing more to say here.
just that i miss home.
added: and who is annabanana? are you someone i know here? cheq maybe? hmmm.. i'm just curious. and i might as well add who's mandy77? but i've blocked you when i thought you were someone who wasn't supposed to read this aka b0b. why i'd think b0b would choose that name is beyond me.
05:49 - 2007-Apr-9 - comments {0} - post comment
don
i feel so bad! i didn't even say good bye to Diana when she left for Amsterdam this morning since i was fast asleep in bed. her bus left at around 2am. kesian her, all alone, leaving the silent house, with no one to see her off. everyone fell asleep. i had set my alarm but somehow, i managed to reset it to 7am pulak. woke up to find her door locked, a message left by her, asking us to eat her fish fingers, her peaches and to water her plants.
i still went to the hospital even though we're officially on holiday now. even the CSI's closed. and no one was there except for one or two students. dark and scary. nasib i wasn't locked in the CSI since they normally have it all locked.
a rugby player for Irel@nd (or was it G@lway, i don't know since i'm not interested) was/is hospitalized here. but i have no idea who he is and neither does anyone else except for this intern (under another team) who's a huge fan of his and pleaded someone to ask him for his autograph while she waited outside in anticipation. he must be happy, having a fan here. even took is picture for the intern. using her mobile phone of course. and so, the intern was on cloud nine for the rest of the day, glancing at his autograph on her chart.
i met this girl in the team. she looks familiar. must be the intern for gastro, thought i. i was asking her all sorts of questions, since i came in late (had holidays before that). asked about the patients, what they had and stuff. and all i got was "erm.. i don't know". by the end of it, it dawned on me that she's not the intern because the intern is kris and there can't be two interns here and it turned out that she's a third med. patut la. i told her my mistake and we tak habis2 laughed about it and she was chuffed that she looks like an intern.
my week
02:01 - 2007-Apr-6 - comments {0} - post comment
mushroom
i wrote something but it's gone.
i was writing my heart out. really. but now, i just feel too tired to do it again. maybe it was not meant for other people to know. it's ok then.
strange...
strange.
i dreamt of being in a forest during summer. you know how the sun shines through the leaves, making the light dance. dancing with the breeze. that was how it was. i could practically smell the earth, the moss, the wood. somehow, it reminded me of this one strange perfume a long time ago. comforting. i was running through the trees, feeling free of all worries. it was like running as a child would. abandoning all other thoughts. just for the fun of it. my hands would touch the leaves and the tree barks. tracing the patterns. i stop. lie back, look up, see the blue sky between the green. close my eyes and feel the breeze again, ruffling my hair. for some reason, i had brunette locks. it must've been after watching too much silly movies that time.
and i woke up with a smile.
more to it than just that. :)
08:18 - 2007-Apr-4 - comments {0} - post comment
3rd
i have less lectures this time, but somehow, everything seems so much busier, so much to do, so little time. right now, i'm falling asleep but i just need to write something down.
just a little jot on how i'm doing. 2 days of lectures in a week. tutorials in between. running around the wards in between too. i feel like there's so much i still don't know and i feel like time is running out. i don't know why this time, it feels different. i used to not really care that much but now...
glad to say that easter holidays is just next week. :D maybe i'd be able to sit back a bit. or maybe not since i still have exams end of this month. 4th year sucks when it comes to exams. i'm getting immune to it already. haha
i know kaklong, you still think i'm a little kid kan? still a bit surprised that i'm already in my 4th year here. well, me too. i still feel like i'm... not grown up. wonder when that'll happen.
mundane news: i successfully tailored my formal gear to my liking. now, the pants fit just nice. see, i can sew (it looks crooked but i doubt people can see it unless they look closely). the buttons too :D. i am becoming more ladylike
more meme
Yourself: sleepy
Your Lover: paints
Your Hair: unrapunzellike
Your Mother: ibu
Your Father: ayah
Your Favorite Item: laptop
Your Dream Last Night: hobbitdoctors
Your Favorite Drink: icedtea
Your Dream Home: Jannah
The Room You Are In: comfy
Your Pets: dead
What You Are Now: stuck
Who You Want to be in Ten Years: myself
What You Want to be in Ten Years: successful
What You're Not: catwoman
One of Your Wishlist Items: canvas
Your Gender: female
The Last Thing You Did: tutorial
What You Are Wearing: bathrobe
Your Favorite Weather: sunny
Your Favorite Book: artemisfowl
The Last Thing You Ate: fishfillet
Your Life: fantastic
Your Mood: changes
Favorite article of clothing: dress+pants/longskirts :D
Favorite color: blue
School: memories
Song: schoolrumble’sbestfriend
with this, i leave you a scribble:
12:27 - 2007-Apr-3 - comments {0} - post comment
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